hard times

well, since my last blog i am really having to put my words into action. so much has happened in such a short space of time. again.

things are at an all time low with jims dad, too painful to go into but as from now we will no longer be spending time with him. he has chosen his path and we have to chose was is best for us and jorja.

i also had a so called friend send me a very hurtful message on face book saying that i am self centered and insensitive to her needs. it is all very painful but basically boils down to the fact that she wants a little girl but cant have one. of course i have jorja but i am also pregnant. she is in a lot of pain and unfortunately i am an easy target.

despite all this i have never felt closer to jim and our love grows with each day. being jorjas mum is a privilege and i am overwhelmed with love for her.

the three of us, soon to be four have gone through all these 'messy' situations and yet here we are close and in love.

whatever life throws at us i know we are going to be fine. we have each other.

plus, tomorrow i am going for my 20 week scan and hopefully finding out the sex of our bundle of joy. very exciting!