here we go again.

ok so when me and jim decided to have baby number 2 we were very excited but also keen to have a smooth pregnancy without any stressful situations going on. i know you cant predict the future but we were really hopeful that things couldn't be any worse than last time ..........

i guess we were wrong.

im fine, the baby is fine and this pregnancy has been a lot easier than the last but unfortunately the 'stressful' situations are just as hard as last time.

a couple of months into the pregnancy jim's nan became increasingly ill. she fought long and hard but unfortunately she passed away. this was very difficult to see the one i love and his family going through the heartache of loosing her.

it reminded me all too much of loosing my own nan.

jims nan had tb which is a very infectious disease which has caused concern as to whether we have got it. very worrying thinking jorja could have it.

jorja has been unwell with chest infection after chest infection which worried me further into thinking that maybe she had tb.

went to the doctor today and she no longer has a chest infection and professionals assure me it is very unlikely she has tb. phew.

we find out jims dad has a strain of tb, which is not contagious but still, not very nice for him.

then just when you think enough is enough we have had our fair share we find out jims granddad has bowel cancer which understandably thrown his family completely. jims granddad Ken is such a lovely man and made me feel very welcomed into the family.

so there that is me up to date.

there is a lot going on but i know it will be ok. i have jim and he has me and we both have a beautiful little girl who has despite all the tragedy kept us laughing and full of love.

excitment

i am in a really good mood and why not!

i have a gorgeous and very loving husband, and beautiful and amazing daughter and another addition coming in feb.

i had my midwife appointment on the 9th which was lovely, jorja was with me and we sat there listening to the heart beat. fantastic.

busy, busy,busy!

well what a day!

today my dad has been successfully commissioned to be the pastor of cbc! so exciting! the service was amazing and i am so proud of him!

then my dad being him decided to have about 40 of the people go to the prince of india for dinner. it was a really special time.

and jim because you read this the worship was fantastic.

jorja was brilliant she behaved beautifully and really is a dream.

if that wasnt enough little bean wanted to have a slice of the action and have a boogie! i have felt it move a little but tonight was the start of the kicking! very exciting! i will be 16 weeks on the 9th.

all in all a very good day! x

its been a while!

ok, well my bad for leaving it so long but so much has happened in a very short space of time.

firstly cornwall was amazing. it was so nice to get away and just be us! it was really great spending time with mummy di and steve. we dont get much time with just them so it was a really special time.

yesterday was jim's nans funeral. i have been to a few before and lost my own nan so i knew what to expect.

it is really hard watching the one you love go through so much heartache and grief. i am glad i was able to be there with him.

it was jim's first full day back at work today and i really missed him. i love spending time with him and apparently 6 weeks just isnt long enough!

today is also the 2nd second anniversary of my nans death and i miss her dearly. she was and always will be a special woman in my life. she was so entertaining and such a giver.

today has a lot of mixed emotion, my nan, jim being back at work and i am 15 weeks pregnant today.

wow, it is a good job i have an excuse to be hormonal!!!


tomorrow is a special day for me and jim. its our 3rd wedding anniversary. i cant believe how quickly the time has gone. i loved him then, and love him even more now.